DEMENTIA CARE: I PUBLISHED A BOOK ON BEING A CARER.

After three years of blogs, this book is out on Amazon Kindle.
   I didn't want publication to run that way, but that is the direction it raced in. Being a carer stood in the path of publishing anything except blog posts...
   It wasn't fair to readers to publish the first chapter of a book in a tiny file. So I cut loose of the first chapter and bundled it with blog posts. To add value to that, I expanded on every blog post with behind-the-scenes comments.

My optimistic title is dementia 1. There's no optimism concerning dementia. Rather, optimism stirs in the hope that there'll be a second book if I number the first one.
   The actual detailed account is lifeless on a slab in the mad science lab, waiting for a jolt of lightning. Maybe that storm happened overnight as this first book went through Kindle processing...
   This morning, making a final adjustment to the Amazon bookshelf, I felt that I was S.P. Tranent the dementia carer/author. Fuck it, I had published a sweary book on the very start of being a dementia carer.
   Yesterday, before I pushed the button, I thought the book was such a failure as it wasn't a "proper" dementia story. Today, seeing the book on sale, I know it is an "improper" dementia story and...
   I am overwhelmed by a sense of relief.
   For two months, I've been sniped at from all sides by minor things that sapped my enthusiasm for anything and everything. (Except coffee and chocolate. Hey, we'll always have Paris.)

Fuck. The first book is out there, and I had no idea I'd have that struggle with it. Is this even a format? Here's the start of my story, and here's what happened next in a few years of blog posts, see you around kids...
   Working up to building book two using the Frankenstein Manual of storytelling production...isn't going to be easy. I'll see what I can do.
   In the meantime, if Twitter brought you to the blog and the blog link sends you to Amazon, buy the book. If you don't like it, hell, get a refund.
   You are supporting a dementia carer if you buy the book, but you aren't condemning a dementia carer to the streets if you don't.
   Will you object to the swearing? For fuck's sake, read the blurb. Take in the title of the series. Click to look inside and discover all the swearing in the sample section.
   Go into that with your eyes fucking open, and you won't be fucking surprised.
   Told you. It's an improper dementia book. And there's nothing fucking wrong in that.