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Friday, 9 July 2021

DEMENTIA CARE: OUT AND ABOUT.

Cared-for and Carer? Vaccinated twice. I allow a period of grace to follow. It takes me two weeks to think about going to town. I consider the situation. This is as safe as we’re going to be. I plan…
   First, I exercise on the torture implement. I travel the distance to and from town. This doesn’t kill me. I step off the torture implement.
   Second. I remind myself that sturdy walks in the park in winter didn’t kill me, either. And I walked further in the park than I’d walk going to and from town.
   Third. I choose the best time to go. Early. When certain vital places are open. If I time things right, after I walk around a bit, then other semi-vital places will open up as well.
   Fourth. That was about choosing the best hour. I must choose the best day.
   Fifth. There’s equipment to consider. I make sure the light jacket contains waterproof trousers. Where’s the backpack? No, the larger one. I place the waterproof jacket there.
   Sixth. I think it through. Arrive in time to conduct early business. Buy a few items. Return home. Same routine as before. Before? But I haven’t walked to town in over a year. Haven’t been on a bus in over a year. The closest I got to town was being driven through it twice on the way to my Covid vaccinations. Two trips by car, inside a year.
   Seventh. I set the alarm the night before. It’ll go off at 7.15. I’ll get ready, see what the weather is like, and dress accordingly. No early morning coffee. I have a packet of mints to see me through this journey.
   Eighth. I wake at a little past seven, before the alarm. It’s a real skill. Time for a lie-in. The clock beeps a little later, and I start up. There is a slight chance that I’ll hop on a bus. I throw a stash of coins into my pocket. Yes, I’m carrying banknotes. I expect to pay by contactless card if I take a bus. But if the card fails me, I need a solid backup.
   Always carry cash.

I lock the door behind me, check it once to make sure the mechanism caught, and I walk down the path to the street. In the past year, heading out, I’d turn right to pick up prescriptions. Prescriptions are now delivered.
   Turning left, I take the path to town. This is like wandering through an apocalyptic landscape. Without the zombies. There’s no one out here. The day is overcast. Warm. Threatening rain in the clouds.
   Five minutes in and I feel the strain in my legs. I realise I am walking at a super-fast pace. Slow the fuck down. If you keep this pace up, you’ll arrive in town before certain shops open. It’s around 7.30 in the morning.
   What strikes me as different? Nothing, sadly. The pavements are still shockingly weed-infested. Last year’s summer weeds in the cracks, combined with frosty winter nights following rain, combined to carve into the hard surfaces. This year’s weeds have taken advantage of more cracks, deeper cracks…all the fissures, ravines, and yawning crevices and crevasses.
   The pavements are fucking shitty. Nearer town, the state of the world improves. I’m finally out of the wilderness, here. Still no one out there. I have a mask in my pocket. It is form-fitting, and easy to breathe through.
   Next to that mask is a packet of masks that aren’t quite as good. If the mask slips out of my pocket, or is shat upon by a seagull, I have spare supplies.
   A distant figure walks by, down another road. I am painfully aware of vehicles. The danger is not being hit by Covid, but by a car. Traffic is light. Streets go by. Nothing much changes. There is something nagging away at me, but I can’t place what it is. More on that, later.
   Having slowed my pace to a proper walk, I do fine.
   Then I near Proper Civilisation. The Gleaming Spires. I’ve reached the future. It is early, so there’s not much foot-traffic around a few shops. I stay on course. Okay, I could cross the road. No. I’m fine. I see people here, there. No one is wearing a mask. And that is okay.
   There are isolated pockets of shops, scattered across town. I spot a difference right here. Can’t work out what it is. Then I realise a butcher’s is gone. The business changed, over the course of the Covid year.
   Narrow shop. Go in, work your way to the back of the queue by squeezing past the queue. They’d have to switch to one-customer-at-a-time, not having space to stand two metres apart. Easier to shop in the supermarket. Space is king, in the Covid world.
   Other factors must have been at play. But any business operating on a knife-edge would be split along that edge by the added pressure of the plague.
   The shops fade into the background. Gradually, people appear. This is more like a normal trip. Not quite. I see people on my side of the street. Yes, I cross the road to avoid them. We pass each other with a great distance between us. One person coughs as that happens. Okay, I am vaccinated twice over. But still.
   Fewer weeds, closer to civilisation. Then, before you know it, I am in town. I encounter the cult.
   First, there is a grumpy Scotsman to not deal with. I head to a close. (Pronounced with a soft s – doesn’t rhyme with rose. It’s very Scottish. Very close.) A close is an alleyway. Very narrow.
   I want to be careful here. There’s the cry of a grumpy Scotsman on the other side, unseen. I slow. The grumpy Scotsman emerges from the close. There’s plenty of space to avoid each other. We avoid each other. I head through the close alone and free. Free to turn into the main street and encounter the cult.
   Everywhere I go, I see people in black rectangular masks. I’m in the fucking Twilight Zone now. What have I stumbled into? Normal shopping life, apparently. Soon I’ll be indoors, so it’s time to reach for the mask. It isn’t black.
   Later I learn these black masks are cheap, widespread, and that’s why everyone is wearing them. Last year, masks were in short supply. Overpriced. You had to hunt the mask in the wilds of online retail.
   My mask is in my hand. I fit that and sweep through the retail landscape. First, I make a small purchase that allows me to walk away with change. What changed, in a year? Improvised distancing marks – taped areas – those are gone. Companies stepped in and printed those markings. Very professional.
   All shops are now the Post Office. In other words, look at all the bulletproof screens. Anti-disease screens. We can’t sneeze over each other. Money changes hands through a hole in the see-through wall. That’s when money changes hands. Contactless is handy.
   There are professional signs up, asking people to wear masks. Face-coverings.
   My shopping experience – utterly normal. Like going to a Post Office. I try a second shop. Must fill up my backpack. Here, I expect a queue. There is a short one. But the woman will take me up at the top of the queue. I negotiate as best I can by not going near the people at the middle till.
   Screen. Request for masks. Distancing signs on the floor. I buy stuff and make change. Next, I try my luck in shop number three. A large place. Mask requests. My mask stayed on all through my shopping-spree.
   In here, I encountered a woman without a mask. She wore a badge to explain that she was exempt. In her defence, she looked the worse-for wear with difficulty breathing. My guess – she was vaccinated. And she relied on others wearing masks to increase her safety.
   Also, there was the earliness of the hour. She was getting her shopping in during a time of low foot-traffic.
   Here, I don’t try to make change. I use contactless payment. This is built for Covid, though everyone had to increase the basic limit to make shopping easier during the plague. The big test is the supermarket…
   It isn’t much of a test. No one is on the door, welcoming me. That was a measure from last year. People being counted in. Counted out again. Marks on the floor? Professionally printed. The strictness of the one-way system around the supermarket eased up, at some point.
   Low customer count. No difficulties. I pick up what I need. Some things are better bought in person. And then I am outside, away from the shops. It rains. I can’t call it real rain.
   The non-rain is barely worth bothering with. I don’t take out my jacket. Something bothers me, and I don’t take in what that is.

On my second trip into town, I get it. It’s a time thing. If I head into town at a certain time on a particular day, I encounter people coming the other way. Regulars. Not people I know. But people I recognise, from the clash of routines.
   Many of those people must have had routines that changed across the Covid Year. A few regulars are still regulars, and it takes until my return home on that second trip to see familiar faces. (I went home a different way, the first time. Missed the regular people heading the other way.)

Aaand…since then I’ve been to town in the pouring rain. Which I loved. I was fully waterproofed. Humidity was ridiculous, but breathable waterproofs helped significantly. There are fewer people out there on the streets in the rain, and that helps.
   A carer told me she’d been vaccinated – and she caught Covid. Felt crap for three days. She’d have felt far worse, otherwise. So the rain falls. Fewer people. Less chance of catching the disease.
   The future is here. Town is a thing, again. And it needs to be weeded, in the outlying areas.

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